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Of past and present, of dreams and hopes

Journal Entry: Tue Nov 24, 2009, 3:35 AM

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do nothing
do nothing
do nothing

I had lots of boyfriends. I never loved them. It was just an option for not to be alone...
People who know me know for sure how rarely I really loved...
But still, everytime I remember of lost loves, I have mixed feelings. I can't say I'm regretless...No, because I have hurt people who loved me the most...
Why does it have to haunt me?
Why does it have to poke me with some stupid dream that I enjoy like an addict enjoys heroin?
But...hey...the past is the past, right?

_{În numele dragostei am realizat că ezitarea e moartea noțiunii de bine
Iar ura e doar un efect secundar al unei pasiuni prea copleșitoare
Cu săgeata le șoptesc propriile lor bătăi de inimă
Căci cu o altă voce-toate sună mai bine
Chiar dacă îți sunt rostite propriile trăiri,propriile iubiri,propriile cuvinte
E așa greu să rostești "te iubesc" în toiul nopții
Fiindcă e un sunet spart,parcă nu cuprinde tot
Iar când ai curajul de a spune asta oricum nu contează
Căci sunetul e stângaci
Și nici nu poți să ai tonul care trebuie
Nu toți studiază canto...
Un lucru nu am să-l înțeleg
Cum râdem perfid trecutului,iubind tot ce înseamnă Acum
Iar acum în viitor va deveni o glumă reușită
Chiar un anticariat al vieții
Doar fiindcă e al naibii de ușor
Să le iei pe toate ca nefiind importante
La cules suntem experți
Dar la triat uităm să separăm ce e stricat de bine
Și prinși fiind într-un joc de orgolii
Vom deveni însuși acel lucru de care ne temem în momentele vulnerabile
În momentele în care suntem noi,despuiați în fața lumii
Fiindcă un actor bun va intra atât de bine în rol
Uitând cine e de fapt
Pierzându-și esența,inițialul
Devenind una cu personajul,fiind personajul
Puntea de legătură s-a destrămat ca mărgele deșirate pe podea
De prea multă dragoste,de prea multă pasiune
În urmă nu rămâne decât un fotoliu rupt și poate niște haine aruncate pe jos
În numele dragostei}

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Bye old frustrated Anna, hello free Anna.

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Mood: Remorse
Listening to: heartbeats
Reading: eliade
Watching: litere
Playing: de'a cititul si de'a scrisul
Eating: gudron
Drinking: water

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Dreamy November

Journal Entry: Sat Nov 21, 2009, 2:14 AM

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live
love
laugh

7 months

How beautifully everything fits...Everything in its right place...

Have a beautiful, warm end of autumn.

Aici gasiti sfarsitul Mara&Tudor:[link]

Bye old frustrated Anna, hello free Anna.

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Mood: Sentimental
Listening to: Vh1
Reading: eliade
Watching: litere
Playing: de'a cititul si de'a scrisul
Eating: gudron
Drinking: water

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She Wants to go to the Seaside...

Journal Entry: Tue Nov 17, 2009, 2:52 AM

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live
love
laugh

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2 mai...A 2 mai just for the two of us...Freedom...Just like a butterfly, calm and collected, shining sun in your eyes...
The beach is empty. She's waiting for us to come and enjoy every single dead mussle and every single shell...
Summer in November...Summer in my happy warm and loved heart...

Aici gasiti sfarsitul Mara&Tudor:[link]

Bye old frustrated Anna, hello free Anna.

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Mood: Yearning
Listening to: the kooks
Reading: eliade
Watching: litere
Playing: de'a cititul si de'a scrisul
Eating: gudron
Drinking: water

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Pam Pam!

Journal Entry: Thu Nov 12, 2009, 11:48 AM

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smile
sleep
love

It's been a while since I have been able to say that I like a picture of mine. But this one is just gorgeous, isn't she so so sweet? With her pink little nails...
So I'm quite content, but anyway, usually the pictures I truly like don't get too many favs, but it's okay...
And yes, me redhead

Aici gasiti sfarsitul Mara&Tudor:[link]

Bye old frustrated Anna, hello free Anna.

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Mood: Enjoying The Show
Listening to: zero 7
Reading: eliade
Watching: litere
Playing: de'a cititul si de'a scrisul
Eating: gudron
Drinking: water

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There's a reason for...almost everything

Journal Entry: Wed Nov 11, 2009, 4:42 AM

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write
dream
smile

There's a reason why I had a crysis. It was another twist 'n' turn in the way to progression. So now...Now I know...how I'm supposed to be and what I want and shit...
Lucky for me that I have such good two friends to guide me(even though they sometimes don't realize the impact they have upon my life).
So...it's all about perspectives in the end...and, of course, knowing who deserves your attention and devotion...
So...

So, thank you

, for your love and patience, for your constant affection and for being my punchbox
And thank you

for highlighting what's best of the situation, no matter what.

Aici gasiti sfarsitul Mara&Tudor:[link]

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Mood: Not Impressed
Listening to: morcheeba-otherwise
Reading: my own writings
Watching: litere
Playing: de'a cititul si de'a scrisul
Eating: gudron
Drinking: water

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Journal History

Nov 24, 2009 Of past and present, of dreams and hopes
Nov 21, 2009 Dreamy November
Nov 17, 2009 She Wants to go to the Seaside...
Nov 12, 2009 Pam Pam!
Nov 11, 2009 There's a reason for...almost everything
Nov 8, 2009 I want to declare a lost self.
Nov 6, 2009 Scatterbrain
Oct 29, 2009 Autumn.
Oct 21, 2009 Alive.
Oct 3, 2009 Love Strikes...

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=Darksolitude: happy happy happy happy
Sat Oct 31, 2009, 1:02 PM
~Mattrobbyattack: Thaaaaankyou
Fri Sep 18, 2009, 1:18 PM
=Darksolitude: black hole sun, won't you come...
Wed Sep 16, 2009, 10:15 PM
~moonangellove: , darky
Wed Sep 16, 2009, 5:29 AM
*veftenie: thank you!
Wed Sep 16, 2009, 4:47 AM
=Darksolitude: we're all looking in the wrong way
Tue Aug 4, 2009, 6:27 AM
~extrajulius: *uses supah powah to unfreeze you* now you be careful next time
Fri Jul 31, 2009, 12:46 AM
=Darksolitude: frozen to myself...
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=Darksolitude: seaside tomorrow
Wed Jul 8, 2009, 5:26 AM